After reading I'll give you the sun, I realised that maybe I thought of
my life all wrong. Guillermo Garcia said that the best artists are the one
created by suffering. I know that there are people in worse situations than
I; I hear that all the time; I don't need reminding. To me, the worst part of the experience was not knowing: not knowing
whether they did it for me for themselves - whether I should run or stay –
whether I should live or die…
Wanting to express my experience, I wrote The Playground (A Short
Description Of A Character Based On Me). I did not, however, want to write an autobiography because the way I ignored
my problems and hoped them to go away: which they somehow did: I know now that is
not how I should have acted or have wanted someone else to act: had I another chance,
I would have made my own life – my own
future.
Deciding on the fact that my life was not really my own, I made a story
in which I could give that freedom to someone
– a freedom I never had; Hanna – who is based on the bad side of me – who lives
in a world I used to see out of my locked the window – an England darkened by
clouds, in the distance, spouting from a
great iron needle injecting evil into the sky.
This story is for the people who had parents they found difficult to like
and to people who like a romance (a little darker than Nicola Yoon's) and most importantly for my little brother –
the only other one who feels what I feel – my brother who is much braver than I…